It’s been 147 days since I was in Nicaragua and found out that Joncee’s cancer had returned and our lives were changed yet again. I find the fact that I’m back in Nicaragua for our Mission Trip to be fitting for this post. (The picture you’re seeing is the exact location I was standing when I found out Joncee was sick again)
There has been an assortment of emotions in being here because Joncee has just finished his 4th treatment. Things seem to have gone as usual, but he doesn’t like to take his Zofran and learned the hard way by throwing up a few times the next morning. He’s turned the corner and was able to sing his solo in our church community on Sunday.
There is something so right in being here though. So often situations in our lives can instill fear that can cause us to hesitate or shy away from experiencing God’s goodness. Having been here 6 times, there’s a part of my heart that is permanently here.
The other night I was listening to some music and came across a song that used the phrase “Endless Hallelujahs.” Leonard Cohen also talks about “Broken Hallelujahs” as well in his famous song Hallelujah. I was reflecting on this as I listened and love the beauty of God’s ability to take our brokenness and invite us to live our lives as “Living Endless Hallelujahs” in our world.
In the community of Cristo Rey, (where we have invested for 4 years) we attended the worship service in a church community with 80% children in it. Afterward we were able to share life and play. It was hard to leave as I began to reflect on where this community started to where it is now. A church building, a park to play in, more land, and relationships to last a lifetime.
To again see a community with children who have so little and yet having everything is always humbling whether you experience it abroad or at home. It comes down to the love they so willingly give and it reminds me that every time we experience and receive love from another, we are experiencing Christ himself.
Each of these experiences is an invitation to be “Endless Hallelujahs” in our world. That’s each of us. That’s today. That’s tomorrow. That’s good news. May we lean into situations that cause fear to rise so “Endless Hallelujahs” spring up in our daily moments and become a natural part of who we are as Followers of Jesus.
You are loved.